Happiness is a state of being

     I had a good day yesterday with a friend named Samuel.  He made me think about life.  In particular my life.  I can't remember a time when I laughed so much or so hard.  I miss that.  It's rare that I'm so comfortable with someone upon just meeting them.  

     Today as I sit here writing to you, I think of that moment in time and it makes me want more of that joy in my life.  My problem for myself now becomes how do I go about that.  How do I keep that state of happiness alive within self.

     Happiness is a state of being.  My hope is that you know this already.  You have to become happy but it takes a wanting desire to ascertain.  True happiness can come from the simplest of things; childhood memories, family, job, or future expectations.  I consider myself a pretty simple person with a desire that's not being fulfilled from within self.  I acknowledge that no one but myself is responsible for my happiness; so I take full responsibility for my present state.

     When you are so focused on other things or other people you forget about self.  Self becomes less important than every thing or every one else.  I do this a lot because I'm a care taker type personality. It has become my job now to refocus my energy on self; the self that is starving for my attention.  I'm ready for that journey and I have no idea where it will take me but I'm optimistic.     

     I'm grateful to this person for unknowingly opening my eyes to something that's been missing out of my life for a while now.  I realize that it has less to do with him and more to do with myself but still I have to thank him.

     As always, I am Lady PJ and information is power so be informed.