I Forgive

     Forgiveness is the hardest thing for me to do because it means that I'm saying, "it's alright that you did me harm, no matter how great that harm is to me personally."  I'm giving you a pass.  What it doesn't say is, that I will forget that you did me harm.  I can forgive your action but I will never forget your actions.  The true test is to be able to completely let it go, no matter what it is, that's a very hard thing for me to do.  In order to move on and have the happiness that I presently seek I must let go.  I know that now.
     This morning when I woke up I realized that my peace, within, was being restored.  I always like to see the good in people and I believe in second chances; that our past shouldn't define our future.  Someone hurt me straight to the heart with his lies, deceit, and betrayal; and I've been trying to understand where I went wrong.  I can't put all the fault on him because I opened that door and said to this person "come on in."  I invited him into my life without checking his credentials.  I did that.  You see I don't want this to affect the person I am becoming because I'm pretty proud of her right now but I now know that there is a weakness that I need to fix.  The question become how?  I put a wall down, now do I build it back up.
     I'm not looking back to his faults or his wrongs but I am looking forward to my future strengths, my faith in the good of people with the understanding that not all people have good intentions, my joy returning with every day the sun shines above me, and the restoration of my peace and harmony with the nature that surrounds me.
     People will hurt you, do you wrong, but it is up to you to say enough and move on.  Today, I am saying that, "I forgive you for hurting me deeply, but enough; I'm moving on with my life without you in it."  I wish for your happiness, for your joy, and that you return to the person that I know you can be again; a man of his word.  I have to go now and help my community raise money for a park.  I am Lady PJ, and information is power so be informed.