Closing A Chapter

     I'm here today at a lost for words because some thing quite unexpected happened a few days ago.  My daughter, Jasmine, was on Facebook and she saw a comment about her Dad, Calvin, being dead.  If you've been reading my blog then you know that this is my ex-husband and there's no love lost there for either of us.  She, my daughter, went to pieces and I was thrown into this unexpected place.  I've been here just thinking about all the stuff he put me through and it's crazy because I can't feel sad about his death.  I was thinking about the time he came to my apartment and threatened to kill himself in front of me because I left him, or the time he threatened to punch me in the mouth, the fight that ensued from that threat, or the time he took a part off my car so I couldn't leave, the constant harassing phone calls, the belittlement, the stalking, the lying, and the manipulation.  He use to call my friends and threatened to hurt them for helping me.  He would call my job and try to get me fired by telling them I was of low moral character; I was a thief and I had stole from my last job.  It was crazy.
     I remember telling him that he would die all alone and no body would know he was dead.  He had alienated so many people in his life including his Mother and his other kids.  Well, He died all alone and in fact no body knew he was dead for a couple of days.  What a sad way to die but he refused to change his ways.  His funeral is Sunday and my daughter wants to go.  I'm starting to think that I need to go.  There is so much hurt there and so much anger that I don't think I've ever really let go of.  I think it's time to say goodbye to this person that I trusted and believed in, who I felt betrayed me and made my life hell.  It's time to close that chapter completely.