Encouraging words of wisdom

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres...

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love.

But the greatest of these is love.”

—Bible (I Corinthians 13:4-7, 13)

Friday, April 26, 2013

Love Don't Love Me Softly



LOVE DON’T LOVE ME SOFTLY

You take me high then bring me low
Up in the clouds one day, next day to the floor
Love don’t love me softly
No, love don't love me true
Love don’t love me -love me
Not the way that I….. Love you

I’m sinking now; hope can’t be found
Church bells keep ringing, tears are falling down
I pull my knees, straight to my heart
Holding them tight cause I’m falling apart
Here shaking like crazy; frustrated and
Thinking of the days when it was your arms I felt
This hurt is just aching and I’m feeling like death

Can someone please save me, I need to feel myself
My spiritual energy drained and I have nothing left
Cause love don't love me softly, no love don't love me true
Love don't love me, love me, not the way that I love you

Copyright April 27, 2013
Philessa Jenkins


Saturday, April 20, 2013

I Forgive

     Forgiveness is the hardest thing for me to do because it means that I'm saying, "it's alright that you did me harm, no matter how great that harm is to me personally."  I'm giving you a pass.  What it doesn't say is, that I will forget that you did me harm.  I can forgive your action but I will never forget your actions.  The true test is to be able to completely let it go, no matter what it is, that's a very hard thing for me to do.  In order to move on and have the happiness that I presently seek I must let go.  I know that now.
     This morning when I woke up I realized that my peace, within, was being restored.  I always like to see the good in people and I believe in second chances; that our past shouldn't define our future.  Someone hurt me straight to the heart with his lies, deceit, and betrayal; and I've been trying to understand where I went wrong.  I can't put all the fault on him because I opened that door and said to this person "come on in."  I invited him into my life without checking his credentials.  I did that.  You see I don't want this to affect the person I am becoming because I'm pretty proud of her right now but I now know that there is a weakness that I need to fix.  The question become how?  I put a wall down, now do I build it back up.
     I'm not looking back to his faults or his wrongs but I am looking forward to my future strengths, my faith in the good of people with the understanding that not all people have good intentions, my joy returning with every day the sun shines above me, and the restoration of my peace and harmony with the nature that surrounds me.
     People will hurt you, do you wrong, but it is up to you to say enough and move on.  Today, I am saying that, "I forgive you for hurting me deeply, but enough; I'm moving on with my life without you in it."  I wish for your happiness, for your joy, and that you return to the person that I know you can be again; a man of his word.  I have to go now and help my community raise money for a park.  I am Lady PJ, and information is power so be informed.

Friday, April 19, 2013

Had One Of Those Amazing Days.

     Today, I had the joy of helping a friend get a job.  I feel so good right now telling you this story.  I drove her to the appointment, for a job as an event coordinator, and all I could think about at the time was "Lord, she needs this blessing." When she walked into the building I let all that worry go and I just smiled.  Victory can so be obtained if you positively seek it.  Just think about that for a moment before you read on.
     I of course could not sit and just wait in the car for the news, so I ended up hunting for a coffee shop.  Before you ask, I am so addicted to coffee that it's the first thing I think about when i wake up in the morning.  Plus, I am so not a morning person, so for me, coffee is a must have.  I ended up walking about a half a mile and it was so worth it; we are talking about a hazelnut, cinnamon, and praline coffee mixture.  I get that um feeling just thinking about it.  It so hit the spot at the right time because it was so unusually cold outside for the month of April in Mobile Alabama.  I of course did not bring a jacket with me but I fortunately had a sweater in my car.  I really don't know what's going on with our weather.  This is so one of those days where you should be sitting close by a warm fire with the one you love, drinking a glass of wine, and listening to classical music (Mozart, I'm thinking).  Um!  Can you imagine that?
     Then I called a friend of mine (that I use to work with) to try and help her son get a job.  It's always ideal to maintain a good rapport with people you've worked for or with, because you never know when you might need something from them one day; like a job.  This friend is definitely someone I know and I trust professionally; being able to trust someone is very important to me.  There's no doubt in my mind that if I put this young man in his hands that he will be taken care of, and shown the ropes; as to allow him to excel in this job.
     After her interview we drove back across the bay to pick her son up from work (he makes $2 an hour before you ask) and took him to the job site to fill out an application, that's when I realized that I knew one of the other managers that I could talk to on his behalf.  I did my part the rest is completely up to him.  He's now waiting for the next training class, after he's trained for the job he will go to work.  I feel so proud of human kindness and God's blessings of course.
     I had a very wonderful day because I had the opportunity to give back to someone a gift that was given to me by strangers; those people are like family to me now and I'm so grateful to them for all they did for me in my time of need.  Let me just finish sharing the best news and the biggest kicker, she got the job and starts on Monday.  I'm all smiles.
     Every now and then when people are down on their luck something wonderful happens and blessings just start pouring from the sky because someone took the time to care.  Much love to you all.  I am Lady PJ and information is power so be informed.
        

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Happiness is a state of being

     I had a good day yesterday with a friend named Samuel.  He made me think about life.  In particular my life.  I can't remember a time when I laughed so much or so hard.  I miss that.  It's rare that I'm so comfortable with someone upon just meeting them.  
     Today as I sit here writing to you, I think of that moment in time and it makes me want more of that joy in my life.  My problem for myself now becomes how do I go about that.  How do I keep that state of happiness alive within self.
     Happiness is a state of being.  My hope is that you know this already.  You have to become happy but it takes a wanting desire to ascertain.  True happiness can come from the simplest of things; childhood memories, family, job, or future expectations.  I consider myself a pretty simple person with a desire that's not being fulfilled from within self.  I acknowledge that no one but myself is responsible for my happiness; so I take full responsibility for my present state.
     When you are so focused on other things or other people you forget about self.  Self becomes less important than every thing or every one else.  I do this a lot because I'm a care taker type personality. It has become my job now to refocus my energy on self; the self that is starving for my attention.  I'm ready for that journey and I have no idea where it will take me but I'm optimistic.     
     I'm grateful to this person for unknowingly opening my eyes to something that's been missing out of my life for a while now.  I realize that it has less to do with him and more to do with myself but still I have to thank him.

     As always, I am Lady PJ and information is power so be informed.

The Landing by Philessa Jenkins


The Landing
If I fall will you catch me
See the wall that surrounds me
Like that caged bird I long to sing
With a wide net I spread my wings
Flying high above the clouds
Looking down but spreading out
I see the things I long to touch
I feel the wind I journey much
But then I think I long to rest
I lay my head upon his chest
With patients I sit upon this place
I see that joy within his face
I found the home I needed much
I journeyed long but lost the rush
Those walls are slowly coming down
That bird that flew is on the ground

By Philessa Jenkins
Copyright 4/2/2013



Life is what you make it


Life is what you make it...
so live the best life you can by being happy