Reclusive Me; find a way out

     Today I was just thinking about how reclusive I become when I feel threatened or worried.  I spend a lot of time trying not to sink into that reclus who just becomes dormant.  I don’t like seeing myself like that but in so many ways it’s really my character.  I’ve always been a loner and I’m used to doing things myself, without help.  Growing up as a child I’ve always had maybe one or two close friends but that’s about it.
     I’m also use to people not really understanding how my mind works because I don’t always think like your normal person.  My brain is designed to solve and it can become obsessive to me because I’m often solving problems in my sleep; which is not good.  Plus, I’m pretty direct with people.  I always say if you don’t want to know the answer don’t ask the question.  It’s my belief that people don’t always want the truth, they want you to agree with them; this is where my mouth gets me into a lot of trouble.  I just can’t tell you that lie because my truth (the way I really feel) will come out my mouth; right behind it.  I feel like if I tell you that lie then I’m not helping you to solve your problem.  What good is that!  When things go wrong I’m use to people coming to me, asking for my help, and I’ve always been the one that people leaned on when they needed help or support; especially in my family.
     One thing you should know is that I hate explaining myself or how I feel and I definitely don’t like to brag about myself; I guess that would make me a modest person.  I know that people will talk about you and they can be cruel, or try to hurt you, but I feel like if you’re not talking about someone in order to help them then why bother talking about them at all.  Although I have to admit that I talk about my family a lot because they will dog you out honey.  It’s very hard to be modest when you are around my family.  You would have to spend a day with us to know what I mean.  I have to admit that I have a wonderful family because if one of us is down we pull together and try to help as best we can.  I love that about my family.
     When I get in this reclusive mode I have to find a way out of it.
1.       The first option is to find something interesting to do; like catch a movie, go out for dinner with a friend, head to the beach, or go shopping.  The purpose is to get out of this mode, by being around people.
2.       The second option is to go to counseling and try to work the problem out.  I so recommend counseling.  It can save your life but make sure that you get along with your counselor.
3.       My third option is to just go with the flow and hope that all turns out well.  I don’t recommend this option.  It doesn’t always work out right.  It’s like waiting for a hurricane, that’s headed right at you, and thinking you will get through it without harm.  You know those “I’ll wait it out people.”
     To all my reclusive friends out there I would love to know what you do to get out of that mode; you know the one “I just want to be by myself or I don’t want to be bothered with anybody at all.”
     I’m Lady PJ and information is power, so be informed.  Much love to you all.