I SEE YOU; poetry by Philessa Jenkins

Friday, June 28, 2013

 I SEE YOU

The eyes don’t lie

It’s so much truth in those big rounds

Like this looking glass I’ve found

I see you

We dance around so freely

Like kids on the play ground

Tag you’re it

You see me?

I see you watching me

With that shy innocence you possess

Longing to be freed

I’m just that on-the-spot test I know you’ll need

And you’ll long to confess it all to me

I’ll be your sunlight

If you’ll be my rainbow

We’ll brighten this world

Together from the depths of our soul

Love will enter our hearts

And we’ll watch as it grows

Questioning every step

Even though we know

Why hide patiently waiting

With your heart constantly aching

I know what you go through

You’re looking at me

I’m looking at you too

What God has put together

No man can put asunder

We’ll be as strong as that lightning bolt

And as loud as that thunder

I see you

Copyright Philessa Jenkins

My day at Marion Junction Alabama.

     I went to Marion Junction Alabama over the weekend; which is in the Dallas County jurisdiction in the Selma metro area.  My family always refers to it as going up country because the area is mostly woods and it’s located in central Alabama.  It’s also the place where my Grandmother and Grandfather are buried.  There was this need in me to see my Grandmother and when I went to visit her grave I felt peace.  I can’t describe this weight I felt just being there at her grave gave me this release.

     We stayed the night with my Great Aunt, who is at the early stages of Alzheimer’s.  I had the chance to sit outside on the front porch with her where we felt the cool breeze of the wind on our faces, looked at the different species of birds (blue birds, mockingbirds, sora’s, and woodpeckers) flying back and forth, and took in all the greenery around us.  It was so immensely relaxing; from the cows in the field wagging their tails, to the limbs on the trees swaying back and forth with the wind, and the sounds of all the birds talking to each other. 

     I asked her, “About the area and were there a lot of homes being built there?”  She informed me of something that I found shocking.  She said, “Most people around here still have outhouses but they put them behind the house so nobody can see them.”  If you don’t know what an outhouse is, it’s an outside toilet but with no running water.  Her words took me back to when I was a little girl; I can remember the outhouse that stood in our backyard.  We would often use it because we didn’t want to run all the way back into the house to use the toilet.  One day we went to use it and found a snake inside; I can’t remember what type of snake but my Mom saw it and well that was the end of the outhouse.   I at the time thought that it was pretty cool that the snake was in that predicament; I was young.  It’s hard to believe that it’s 2013 and people still don’t have toilets in their homes or running water.  I just felt so sad that people have no choice but to live this way because they can’t afford to do better.  It was my reality check.

     My family (my Auntie’s two daughters) treated us like royalty with that old southern hospitality; ensuring that we were comfortable and well fed.  I can’t help but to think that my Great Aunt and I are very much alike in that we both like quiet, peace, and serenity; plus we will fight anyone who tries to take that away.  We both sat on that porch enjoying those simple things in life that you don’t buy from a store.  You just take it all in from day to day and pray to God that it never changes or fades away, that very rare but natural beauty.

     Sorry I have no pictures.  I brought my camera but forgot my film.  Yeah, I know!  This is your girl Lady PJ saying, “Live life to the fullest and enjoy those little things in life for a change.”

A day in the life of PJ

I so enjoyed shooting these pictures; as I hope you will
likewise enjoy viewing them.

I AM PERFECT

     For today I’m giving you an assignment.  Really, you say?  Look it’s such a simple assignment you could do it in your sleep; your dreams of course.  Here we go and I hope you’re ready to change your life.

    Walk over to a mirror, take a good look at yourself and say these words, “I am perfect.” I know.  You’re saying that there are no perfect beings and you are correct; but is not perfection in the eyes of the beholder?  If I look at something and I say, “This is perfect then it's perfect but only perfect to me and isn't that what really matters?” 

     Your assignment for today is to see yourself in a new way.  Listen don’t let any doubt stand in your way.  If doubt creeps into your mind, you just turn into a heavyweight boxer and knock it out the way.  Because today I am perfect just the way I am.

     I’m doing this assignment with you of course but I’m hoping that you won’t just do it for today.  If a moment arises in your life where you feel down about you, then repeat this assignment and don’t forget what to do when doubt comes creeping in.

     I’m your girl Lady pj saying, “Life is a gift so receive it with joy but most importantly learn to appreciate it.”

Business In Review: The Billiard Club in Mobile Alabama

     I went to The Billiard Club off Government Ave, Mobile Alabama and discovered that you can now play pool all week and cheap; Friday through Saturday it's a $4 cover charge and playing pool is free but the rest of the week it's just $2.  Just don't forget to bring money for drinks.  You know you got to get your drink on!  They're open at 5pm and after that small fee you can play as long as you want.  So if you want a girl's night out, place to go, or guy's then you should really go and check them out.  Guy's if you want a really cheap date this is the place.  LOL!

The Billard Club

(251) 447-2132

4130 Government Blvd, Mobile, AL 36693

Near Skyland Park

 

     Well, I just wanted to show you something you can do to have fun and not have to spend a lot of money.  This is your girl, Lady PJ saying stop being bored and get out there; enjoy life.  Much love to you all.

My day at Wood Park 6/15/13

     Check out my day at Wood Park; Mobile Parks & Recreation Department.  Wood Park is off of DIP (Dauphin Island Parkway) in Mobile, Alabama.  It's actually a very nice place to go fishing (but you must have a saltwater fishing license first) or just hang out by the water with the kids.  I hung out with my niece, Amber.  We had a pretty good day today.

     This is your girl Lady PJ saying, "Go outside and explore your world or just your backyard you'll never know what you might find."

  

 

Don't forget to mediate today

I hold myself close now; just giving myself all the love I can muster.  I squeeze myself real hard.  Then I put a relaxation cd in the video player, walk over to the most comfortable place in the room, sit down, cross my legs, and close my eyes to relax; leaving all worry behind.  I block out all the doubt, all the self-hate, and all the pain.  I think of where I want to be.  I find a place where I would be whole and completely one, with the world around me. 

     Suddenly, I’m on this boat where the mainsail flaps freely from the mast, the water is crystal blue, and the wind carries little drops of water that are so refreshing on my face.  I’m moving through the sea, which holds the bluest of waters, and there’s nothing to stop me.  I ask myself, “Can I just stay here in this place of peace?”  Ultimately, I block out that doubt.

     I start to notice my breathing is quieter, and my mind is calmer.  I stay in this place a minute or two more before going on to the day before me.  Come take a journey in your mind and visit that place that gives you the most peace.  You can release that stress that’s held down deep and you can find that calm in the mist of the storm around you. 

     This is your girl, Lady PJ; information is power, so be informed.  Don’t forget to meditate today; it only takes about fifteen minutes out your day but it has such a wonderful benefit.  Much love to you all.

Movie Review: Man Of Steel

Movie Review

Date 6/13/2013

Movie: Man of Steel

Directed by:  Zack Snyder

Characters: Henry Cavill (the eye candy and Superman), Amy Adams (Lois Lane), Russell Crowe (Jor-EL), and the nemesis played by Michael Shannon (General Zod).

This movie is rated PG-13, Action/Adventure movie, and is two hours and twenty-three minutes long.

     I went to the Premiere Night of “Man of Steel” hosted by Walmart.  Kisses to Walmart for making it happen.  I have to say, “Man of Steel” deserves two-thumbs up.”  It was fabulous, from the animation, to the fireworks (gunfire), to the eye candy (Clark Kent).  I was thoroughly entertained. 

     I’m not going to tell you what happened in the movie.  I’m sorry but you just have to go and watch it but it’s so worth the money.  This is not the movie for people that are looking for the gruesome type of action film, no this is an action film designed with the family in mind.  The first part of the movie gives you a lot of backstory on Superman and where he came from; it answers all those old age questions that we use to have as kids and wow finally answers. 

     The movie actually shows Krypton and Clay EL (Clark Kent’s real name) as a baby being put in the capsule that carried him to earth, and then we see him as he becomes Superman.  I have to say that I was missing a little Clark Kent and Lois Lane action but the way this movie ended tells me that it’s going to be a sequel.   

     For you die hard action fans; I think you will find this movie disappointing; sorry but it’s not that type of movie.  It doesn’t have nearly enough fighting in it, and there’s a lot of back story so you might get a little bored in between waiting for the action, but I really enjoyed the animations.   

     This is your girl Lady PJ saying, “go take them children to see this movie because they’ll have a good time.” Yes, go take yourself some family time and don’t forget to have some fun.  Much love to you all.

Creating your bucket list

Creating your bucket list
      Okay, I’m going to give you five things you can do to help you create a bucket list; things to do before you die that is.  This is going to be something that I will do every week, so make sure you check back to see what I add next.

1. Go to the beach
2. Learn how to surf
3. Learn To fish or Go fishing
4. Create a home movie
5. Go swimming with the dolphins

     I'm suggesting going to the beach because it's so refreshing and it really relieves a lot of stress.  It's one of those places where you can go, unwind, and enjoy your day without worry.  What you should think about while you're there is the scenery; from the smell of the air, to the sound of the water, to the birds flying by, and just take in all the calm of the moment.  What I want you to remember is that you can recall this moment at any time that you feel stressed by recalling the smell, the sound, and the view.
     Learn to surf but make sure you have a safety jacket or vest on.  If you're afraid of the water maybe this isn't the best thing for you to just jump right into and never do this when you've been drinking.  Always make sure you have the right gear, that you adhere to the safety rules, and make sure there's a lifeguard on deck.
     Learn to fish by going fishing.  Lovely!  I like fishing it's very relaxing and can be excited when you get that really big catch.  I love that feeling.  Always make sure you have a fishing license if your state requires it, and if on a boat that your boat is registered.  You also want to make sure that you and everyone else on the boat have a fishing vest, also note that children must have a fishing vest that fits to size; you can't just put them on any vest.  Remember this because you could be fined for not adhering to these simple rules.  There are also certain fish that you can't catch during certain times of the year but learning what the fishing seasons are can be a huge help with this problem.
     Create a home movie; Pinnacle Systems has some really nice software that can help you with this.  Putting  your memories into film can be so rewarding as you get older, or just to remember those precious moments that you never want to forget; the birth of your child, their first day at school,  the day you get married, your child's graduation, your graduation day, turning the key on your first home, and your kids going off to college.  Wouldn't it be nice to relive those moments and know that you can enjoy them anytime you want?
     Going swimming with the dolphins and guess what, you could film the whole thing and relive it over, and over, and over.  I am so going to do this one day.  It's on my bucket list for sure.  As long as I'm not swimming with the sharks or the alligators.  Just keepin it real!
     This is your girl Lady PJ saying, “Enjoy every moment of your life because your tomorrow may never come, so live today.”

   

My Day At The Beach

     I went to the beach, in Gulf Shores Alabama, on Wednesday the fifth of June and the water was ferocious.   I was with my family (My Mom, my daughter, my two nieces, and my nephew) and we were all excited to go swimming in the beach; of course I thought we were going to Orange Beach where the water was much clearer but no, Gulf Shores.  Orange Beach has prettier waters.

     So we arrive there by car with my Mom driving and upon arrival we notice the red flags flying; which means high hazards as in the water conditions may be rough.  I thought okay we're just going to chill here by the beach for the day; I’m alright with that so I start walking on this white sand that’s not too far from the water.  It wasn't pretty because about half way there I decided that we didn't really need to be right by the water.  It only took a few steps in that sand to make that decision final; quick, fast, and in a hurry.   Besides, right next to the water was this long line of seaweed (piles of it) that had washed up and who wants to look at that all day?  Everybody agreed with me.  It didn't really take a whole lot of convincing on my part; I wonder why?  LOL!  

     We're not there for like five minutes and this strong wind hits me across the face, and blew my umbrella back before I could get it into the ground good.  One time the wind blew so hard it blew the umbrella out my Mom’s hands and hit my niece in the face before settling about a few feet from us.  I then put my bright green chair down but upon setting it up I decided to give it to my Mom; because it’s the most comfortable chair I own.  Always have to look out for Mom.   My other chair wasn't too bad, it was bright red and I love bright colors; they put me in a really good mood.  I settled down into my chair with a nice cold refreshing beer in hand (that my niece so nicely thought to bring for me), and I start reading in my book.  Bit by bit I’m relaxing and everyone else is just taking in the view; it was a divine feeling of peace.

     My niece on the other hand decided to sunbathe, my Mom is sitting down chilling, the kids of course are eating, and I’m trying to read this huge book on marketing.  Yeah, that lasted for all of twenty minutes then the beach water started calling my name; “Philessa.”  I think it even whistled a little.  At this time it’s about 2 p.m. and even with the high winds it’s still hot outside; so we all start looking for the sunscreen.  I of course forgot to put it on my face and before you ask, yes I got sunburned a little.

     We all get up and head for the waters and let me just say that the water was ferocious.  When I first walked in the water it was a bit cool but I just kept walking until I was hit in the chest by a huge wave.  It hurt but I just laughed it off.  Then I’m immediately hit by another huge wave but this time the water just bum rushed me and completely consumed me; did I mention that the undercurrents started pulling me back out towards the sea?  In that moment I realized why so many people have drowned here.  Me not wanting to be one of them I swim towards the shore into the shallow part and pull myself up.  My nephew is right in front of me so I decide to watch him very closely; not only am I watching him but I’m also watching for sharks. 

     I wish I had brought a surfboard because that was the perfect time to learn to surf.  Really I just want to say I surfed and check it off my bucket list. 

     This is Lady PJ saying, “Enjoy every moment of your life because your tomorrow may never come, so live today.”

A DAY AT THE BEACH

     I've decided to go to the beach tomorrow with my family; my niece, my daughter, and my mother.  I need to just feel the water all around me and to bath in the sun.  I'm seeing myself now with the sand between my toes; in perfect peace and harmony with the world again.  For some reason or another I need to feel God's gift to the world; the sun and the water (for it is life).  I think for me now it's not a vacation but a must have experience. I need to be one with all that is now and to embrace what's forever gone.

A DAY AT THE BEACH
The waves hit the shore with fiery
As they roll in and out
I can feel the sun on my skin
Thank God I brought sunblock
The excitement hits me with every step
I breath in deep to take in every smell
Why bother unpacking my tent and chair
When the water is waiting for me
Right over there
I drop everything and just walk
I can feel the sand as it flows over my toes
Until the coolness of the water hits me
It's an awakening; but expected
I dare not venture too far
For I know what could lay in wait
So I enjoy this one little spot by the shore
Where the sand is pearl white
But there are a few weeds here and there
And there's a wharf that you can go fishing on
It's absolutely divine

          By Philessa Jenkins

     As always I'm Lady PJ, much love, and remember that information is power so be informed.

Missing my Grandmother

     I was sitting here thinking about my Grandmother the late Mrs. Ora Lee Moore.  Boy is that one very hard thing for me to deal with of late.  It's been almost a year since her passing and my birthday is in a few days and she passed about a week after my birthday.  All I'm left to think about is staying up until late in the night watching her cooking shows (I really don't like to cook; funny but true), but I watched every show with her.  She was bedridden and didn't have much strength when she passed so I tried to make her as comfortable as I could.  We didn't talk too much and thank God she never really asked me to cook her anything, but I told her as many times as I could how much I loved her.  Right now there's a void in my heart that she left behind that really leaves me in this awful place, missing her.  I know that she's not suffering anymore and that her passing relieved her of the pain she had in this world.  It helps some to think that way but Lord I would love a do over; just that last day.  I want the chance to say one more time "I love you," one more hug and kiss from her, and one more time just to hear her try and fuss.  It's always those simple things that make me cry.
     I remember the things she did for my family when I was a child and I will never forget them; all the love she gave to us, the hugs and the kisses, the bags with fruit, candy, and one precious gift at Christmas for each grandchild, and the food (especially the cakes) she cooked every year.  Her favorite holidays were always Thanksgiving and Christmas and we would always get together at her house to celebrate.  She didn't have money to give us just her love and that was never turned away.  She was amazing and she is so very missed by all of us (my whole family).  Nobody in my family can cook like her; she was the cook.
     If you have a good Grandmother honor her by telling her how very much you love her and thank her for being there for you.  This is your girl Lady PJ much love to you.